All I want is to be watching Gossip Girl season 6 right now but I can’t. For one thing, I’m at work and would probably get fired, for another, I just finished season 5 last night and would like to even attempt to wait before starting season 6. I’m incredibly late to the GG party but hey whatever man! I’m watching and that’s all that matters!
Yes, I’ve been feeling really uninspired the last couple of days. Probably longer, considering that I didn’t blog last week because I just had no desire to do so. Sometimes you get into a slump and it’s really hard to pull yourself out and that’s where I am right now. It’s so much easier to wallow in my own misery and feel this way than actually do something about it which is so lame.
What happened is that I was really hoping for something to go my way recently and since it didn’t I’ve been a bag of sadness. It’s like when you’re finally due to upgrade your phone on your contract and you find a new one that you’re so keen on and then get told that no, you can’t have that one ever but you can have this other not so bad but not so great one soon enough. Like you’re kind of annoyed but you know there’s no use in trying to argue. Yep, that’s where I’m at.
I was honestly hoping that I would be able to write something crazy motivational here on how to stop feeling this way but nothing has come to mind. Everything I’ve read has told me to do something out of my comfort zone and I’m just like “hmm nah, that requires too much energy”. I mean they’re probably right but I’m just not having any of it right now.
The worst is that, not even YouTube is helping. No amount of cheerful Zoella videos or hilarious Jenna Marbles videos are managing to lift my spirits.
I feel like Stella who desperately needs to get her groove back, but there’s no Taye Diggs to make it happen. Not that Reuben hasn’t tried to help, he really always goes above and beyond to try make me feel better.
Okay all moping aside, I feel like I need to at least try boost my mood.
So all I’ve been able to come up with is the idea that I need to do something creative to lift my mood. I tried painting recently and that felt great and I could also sketch but I feel like it’ll only be a start. Feeling uninspired has rid me of all desire to even try doing something fun. I mean I haven’t even posted on insta for almost a month because I’ve felt like nothing will be good enough. That being said, I think I’m going to give it a try anyway.
The fun thing (and when I say fun I mean the furthest thing from it) about having anxiety is feeling stressed at the thought of doing anything at all. It’s the reason that all I want to do is lie in bed watching series all day. The most important thing to do is work past it, not allow the anxiety to win which I think is what I’ve been doing. The idea of even writing this post filled me with dread but I decided to do it anyway which has made me feel better. Baby steps for the win!
Now I think I’m going to follow through with my idea to do something creative this weekend. I’m actually moving soon (you’ll hear all about it in next weeks post) which means I need to start packing and that makes me hella excited. I think that’ll be the spring cleaning boost I need. Also, it’s almost spring which means it’s almost summer and I CANNOT wait for that. I feel happy in summer just because the sun is shining. A wardrobe reboot would also do wonders to make me feel more inspired! (Hmmm Maybe I should do something about that…)
Another thing I want to do is pick up on old routines that I love. I used to write in what I called a gratitude journal where I would write about all the things I was grateful for each day. This is something I haven’t done in ages and I used to love it, so I guess I need to get my hands on a new journal and get back to appreciating the small things in life. I also have an amazing camera that I need to start using for more than just blog purposes.
I realise this post is totally all over the place and probably serves no real purpose but I felt like I needed to get it out of my system. Sometimes all you need is a place or a person to vent to, just an outlet to rid you of all the bad vibes.
Cheers to you for reading this and also please leave me a comment telling me what you do to get out of your funk. Feeling uninspired sucks and I plan to stop feeling this way, so any advice you have will be so welcomed!
Thanks, VB xx